We appreciate the gestures: the orange and fuchsia
Chairs, the free tea, arm touches of soft solidarity.
Once we saw a woman sob into her mother’s arms while
The room dropped its head in courteous, paperback calm.
I whisper, ‘Silver fox!’ just to see him half laugh then turn
To me. I see our sons in his eyes. We scan the clinic
For people we recognise or can build stories upon
As we all await the benevolent taking of bloods.
Today the consultant is hesitant. To paraphrase:
The chemo could kill him. The cancer will kill him. In time.
Her words cut kindly. They’re running out of plans. We understand
That the medical team will reconvene after more scans.
While waiting, he will seek God’s voice in the mountains
While I will listen through birdsong prayer at dawn and at dusk.
We will attune to the earth’s groaning, green liturgy,
Waltzing twirls in the kitchen to our first dance melody.
Jacquie Bryson lives in the hills outside Belfast with her family. She has worked in education and community relations. She began writing poetry during lockdown and has been published in A New Ulster and Poem Alone.