I drone through the day, bee-like, automatic.
The circuit of movement – alarm clock, cornflakes,
bus. Once on, I take a seat, and the man next to me
is lost in his phone, the sun through the window
placing its thumb on his dark meadow of hair.
I can’t help but notice that he is flower and musk,
and for a moment I wonder if he could be the next love
of my entire life. The love gurus on the internet warn
it will be like this for a while. Me, flitting near men,
led by that pull that keeps the species alive. Scientists
tell us that without bees to pollinate the food crops,
Humanity is doomed. And so, it’s only natural
that I am lured to this stranger and halfway in love.
It’s only natural for him to sit there, still and unaware,
all the while drenched in the pheromone of petals,
the stickiness of seed. Last night I dreamt you again.
This time I was the flower, dew-flecked and heart-crimson.
You had forgotten that you don’t love me anymore.
I woke up sudden and sweat-flecked, finally falling
back into uneven sleep. When I woke up hours
later, I thought about starting over, how life
is a garden full of beautiful blooms. And so here I am,
on a bus, next to a stranger who looks like my next forever.
But then, something catches me, and I look past him out
the window, some random street corner with honking cars,
or a swarm of school kids in front of a candy store.
Scientists say that honeybees die once they have stung
a victim. That’s because their stinger gets screwed in
so deep, they can’t pull it out. Of course, the honeybee
doesn’t know this, doesn’t know better. But I do, and so
I look at the man next to me and think that yes, he is lucky
to be so sweet and sting-able, but I’m not ready to die again
this soon. The bus pulls up to my stop – hisses, shrieks.
I step on to the street, take one last look at him
through the window. The bus starts up again,
rumbles, pulls away.
Francine Witte’s flash fiction and poetry have appeared in numerous journals. Most recently, her stories have been in Best Small Fictions and Flash Fiction America. Her latest flash fiction book is RADIO WATER (Roadside Press.) Her upcoming collection of poetry,
Some Distant Pin of Light is forthcoming from Cervena Barva Press. She lives in NYC. Visit her website
francinewitte.com.